this one's for all those girls about 25

seriously? it's already april. the last entry is from january... it's so hard to believe. i thought that last semester went by really quickly, but i don't know where this semester has gone. it seems like snowpocalypse was just here. but here we are, two weeks away from summer break. either way, though, these past few months have been both challenging and enlightening. it's weird when time sneaks up on you and you realize you're actually becoming an adult. most people would argue that 23 is an adult... i don't know about that one, though. haha, i know some 50 year olds who aren't even adults, so i'll refrain from classifying myself as such for now. i feel like it just hit me in the face today.

as random as it was, i was watching Entertainment Tonight, which is quite possibly one of my least favorite shows... but they were interviewing vin diesel and someone else about the most recent fast and the furious movie and then doing a flashback to the first time interview either of them had around the time of fast and the furious 1 - it was 10 years ago. i started thinking, "where was i ten years ago?" well... i was 13. in junior high. wearing pea-green corduroy overalls (no regrets, right?) forgetting it was wedgie wednesday.... and now i'm here: grad school in a big city i've come to love. a year away from the real world. engaging in meaningful community with inspiring friends. my corduroy overalls have been swapped for black chino pants and blouses for professional fridays...

i was also listening to the radio this morning in the car and martina mcbride's "this one for the girls" came on. the cheesy, yet poignant

This is for all you girls about twenty-five
In a little apartment, just trying to get by
Living on, on dreams and spaghetti-o's
Wondering where you life is gonna go

so maybe that's what set me off today? back when i was clad in the pea-green overalls, i always imagined future self to be quite different. i thought i'd be settled down, living in a house with kids. i'm sure i heard the martina mcbride song years back and thought, "25?! still wondering where my life is gonna go? not me." but now, at 23, i have my whole life ahead of me. it's so interesting to realize i am that "about twenty-five" girl, really living on dreams (i have so many, after all). i'm wondering where my life is going to go... but not in a "oh crap, my life isn't going anywhere, whatever will i amount to" kind of way. no. more in a "how am i going to pick just ONE exciting direction to go toward."

so, in the last few months, i've gone through a lot. a lot of crap. a lot of good stuff, too. anyone close to me know a lot of exciting things have been happening and i have a lot to be thankful for. i've done a lot of thinking and praying... and i've reached some sort of peace about the future. and, i guess you could say, the present. i, no doubt, waver in my faith on all of this, but overall, i'm happy. and that's exciting to say. i'm happy, i'm hopeful, and i get so pumped thinking about the possibilities for my life.

i've learned a lot about people. i've learned a lot about myself. i've learned a lot about who God is and what he does. i have a lot more to learn. but i can't wait.